Transition mode

I feel like so many things are going on a roller coaster ride these days: my bank account, my job, my future, and even my old car. It's really hard to cope with these changes that happen all at one time and focus my mind to study for the exams. My co-worker asked me today to see how's my studying going. He said he has been trying to study too, but shit happens all the time, and he has to put it off. I totally understand how difficult it can be.

I was all excited a month ago about my new black Mazda, despite the fact that it made a huge cut in my pocket and I was first time in debt.

You would think, or I would think that everything, will work out as usual: buy a new car and sell the old car. For a short time, I already found a serious buyer. The day before we did the transfer, she mentioned about the pink slip. It sounds so trivial that I thought it's one of those unimportant documents that I can get away with, but we eventually finds out that it's a California title that I must have, but I don't have. Then I have to go through AAA, AAA, then DMV to apply for one, which takes couple of weeks. That makes it a huge delay. I couldn't totally enjoy my new car because I consistently have to run my old car, hoping that I don't need to have any more repair. Everyday I opened the mailbox, hoping that the title will comes first before my car breaks down. Finally, last weekend, my car won and I need to bring it to the shop.

Then it comes to my job. It's really my fault for being greedy. From my friend's referral, I went for an interview. I went into the room with the idea that I am not taking this job. I ended up coming out of the room, with great offer, great benefits, bigger projects in a bigger company. What more can I ask for? I was so tempted to take the job that I was willing to go though an attorney to resolve my Visa issue. Now, everyday, I am crossing my fingers AGAIN, hoping that the visa will get granted. I don't know if I am prepared to go back to the original job and stay after knowing there is better out there.

Greed is causing me too much trouble and it sucks because greed is just part of human nature... well at least for me. This coming weeks is going to be nerve-wracking.