Friends

I guess it has always been true, but it wasn't until today that I completely believe true friends are hard to find as one gets older. When I was in high school, I had a couple of best friends where I could talk to whenever I had problems to share. Life was simple and people were much simplier. We were able to tell each other secrets and that was how we built up our trust.

Now that I enter into adulthood, that simplicity no longer applies to life or the friends around me. Most people seem to have a lot of layers within themselve, which make it hard to open up to share that trust. As a result, hardly anyone can fit into the category of true friends.

Have you considered when you run into problems, how many people can you call for emergency other than your family? Most likely one or two before you stretched into calling people that you don't feel comfortable calling to cause any trouble.

In my case, I am just tired and confused to witness the whole ironic relationship of friends. We usually hang out in about a group of 6 people. However, among that 6 people, we aren't totally in harmony. When A, B, C get together, they talk crap about D and E as jokes to laugh about. When B, C, D get together, they talk crap about A. D always avoid A and C always avoid E. F hates B and never got along with A. This is not supposed to be a puzzle, but apparently and unfortunately, this is the reflection of "friends". How can I not lose hope in friendship, when everyone around me wears a mask. That's why I really want to slowly migrate away from this so called "friendship" to seek for some real friendship. Hopefully I am not just fooling myself and such thing truly exist.